life seems so long some days like it is moving in slow motion then others it seems like it goes to fast i wish sometimes i could go back in time and be a kid all over again when life seemed so simple but there is no way i can go back so i got to keep moving on it seems like the more i move on my family all of them is moving away we don't see much of them anymore and that bothers me a lot i love my family i would like to see them more like my 2 nieces and all my little cousins but now everyone has their on lifes they do their on things we can not all get to gather on christmas thanksgiving easter none of them days birthdays and i really do want to get togather and be a part of their lives now i just miss everyone so much

No matter how good you are to people are all the things you do it just dont seem like it is good enough for them so what are you suppost to do when you give it all you got to make them happy i try so hard every day to make people happy to like me do what ever it takes but you know i have had enough i can not do it anymore i am so tired of trying to make other people happy it is making me feel like i am no good i am a bad person but i am not i am a good person just helping the wrong people i guess i want to help everyone i like to listen to what is going on in other peoples life and tryin to help them it makes me feel good all the people i know says i am a good listener i think i am if anyone has problems they talk to me i guess they do it because they know no matter what it is if they dont want me to say any thing i dont like me and my older sis we can talk to each other about anything before we could not be in the same room with each other i am so happy things has changed i need her in my life some times i dont know what i would do with out her when i lost my to babys she helped me more then she know and i thank her for that she is my best friend and i would do anything for her ...........thanks

I try so hard to love evryone some people just make it so hard to do .... I wish I had the srength to go out and try to make peace in the world but I dont't think one person can do it alone a few years ago i think it would have but todays world people are just going crazy it's just not right this world is getting harder and harder to live in maybe if we all come to gather and pray we could see a diffrents ....i want so bad to have a child but I don't see where it is safe ...but all we can do is pray and pray some more God hears our prayers we just got to stick togather...

Me and my husband have been married for almost 1 yr well before we got married we was always having problems we didn't know what was going to happen we have been to gather for 4yrs. i thought we have been through everything there was to go through but I have learn to take the good with the bad because just because you have a few bad days does not mean to get up and say i am done i did because i didn't think he cared about me he always wanted to go it didn't matter where just so he could be away from but things have change the day i left and didn't come back for a month he knew he needed me just as much as i needed him i didn't want to leave but i knew if i didn't we would be having more problems then we are having now i love him so much he has taught me to love more and forgive more before him i was in some crazy relationships that where pretty bad i didn't think i would still be here today in a few of them but i have prayed everyday that God would give me someone i could show my love to and give my heart to and he did he gave me a great husband i could not ask for no one better i am not saying we don't have problems cause we do any relationship that is true will have problems you just have to work through all of them and learn to love and trust see before i didn't know how to trust because when i should trust i got let down a lot but with the man i am with my husband i trust him i wish i could say he has all of my trust but that's where God comes in he will give you the choose along the way to do it or not i am myself is still working on it but he will have all of my trust because i believe in prayer i believe in God he has helped me go through life if it has not been for him i would have gave up a long time ago.....

time goes so fast

Time goes so fast the older we get the faster it goes we forget things and people somethings we for some reason can not forget like our first love why is that so hard to forget some people think you can just block things like that out but really no matter how hard you try you just can not do it ........time still goes on even when you loose someone no matter how much it hurts you got to keep going people will come and go life keeps going on weather you like it or not i know sometimes i wish it would stop it sometimes seems like it is going in fast forward i don't feel like i can breath ......sometimes i feel like i need a break from life.........maybe I'm just crazy i don't know...

I have a lot to talk about my life could be a movie it has good and bad and worse i have learn to love more everyday though some days are harder then others .. i see how happy people are around me and hope that one day i can have a life like that ..i have so many things that on my mind right now i don't know where to start ...i see and hear every day about all these baby's that are being killed for no reason and people like me have been trying for so many years and still no kids well i have lost two but i would give anything just to have one i love kids more then life if i got pregnant and had to choose to kill my baby over my life i would choose my life...people tell me all the time wait you will have one i have been waiting for ever...i pray everyday i could have one i ask my self all the time is that to much to ask for ....