Me and my husband have been married for almost 1 yr well before we got married we was always having problems we didn't know what was going to happen we have been to gather for 4yrs. i thought we have been through everything there was to go through but I have learn to take the good with the bad because just because you have a few bad days does not mean to get up and say i am done i did because i didn't think he cared about me he always wanted to go it didn't matter where just so he could be away from but things have change the day i left and didn't come back for a month he knew he needed me just as much as i needed him i didn't want to leave but i knew if i didn't we would be having more problems then we are having now i love him so much he has taught me to love more and forgive more before him i was in some crazy relationships that where pretty bad i didn't think i would still be here today in a few of them but i have prayed everyday that God would give me someone i could show my love to and give my heart to and he did he gave me a great husband i could not ask for no one better i am not saying we don't have problems cause we do any relationship that is true will have problems you just have to work through all of them and learn to love and trust see before i didn't know how to trust because when i should trust i got let down a lot but with the man i am with my husband i trust him i wish i could say he has all of my trust but that's where God comes in he will give you the choose along the way to do it or not i am myself is still working on it but he will have all of my trust because i believe in prayer i believe in God he has helped me go through life if it has not been for him i would have gave up a long time ago.....

time goes so fast

Time goes so fast the older we get the faster it goes we forget things and people somethings we for some reason can not forget like our first love why is that so hard to forget some people think you can just block things like that out but really no matter how hard you try you just can not do it ........time still goes on even when you loose someone no matter how much it hurts you got to keep going people will come and go life keeps going on weather you like it or not i know sometimes i wish it would stop it sometimes seems like it is going in fast forward i don't feel like i can breath ......sometimes i feel like i need a break from life.........maybe I'm just crazy i don't know...

I have a lot to talk about my life could be a movie it has good and bad and worse i have learn to love more everyday though some days are harder then others .. i see how happy people are around me and hope that one day i can have a life like that ..i have so many things that on my mind right now i don't know where to start ...i see and hear every day about all these baby's that are being killed for no reason and people like me have been trying for so many years and still no kids well i have lost two but i would give anything just to have one i love kids more then life if i got pregnant and had to choose to kill my baby over my life i would choose my life...people tell me all the time wait you will have one i have been waiting for ever...i pray everyday i could have one i ask my self all the time is that to much to ask for ....